Whenever THAT BOY at my school turned to look at me and smile, I would feel embarrassed and furious. He was rude and beat me up all the time, buuuuuuut I have the horrible feeling that he actually liked me. He got oddly close sometimes and the girls in my class would giggle and talk about "us" behind my back. It was unfair.
That's happened to me before . A few years ago I really liked this guy and it took me a while to realise he liked me back (but although everyone could tell we liked each other) , but since he was 'popular' or whatever and I wasn't , all the 'popular' girls would always laugh about "us" too . I guess that's why we probably never dated , he was most likely too embarrassed to go out with someone like me .. ah whatever .
Your story sounds omg. Terribly embarrassing. >.< I'm so sorry you had to deal with stupid "popular" people like that. They're unfair.
But the thing with me was that I didn't like the kid at all. He was just a big annoyance that humiliated me in front of all his friends. It was even embarrassing when I beat him up... Like a kind of loser retaliation (because beating someone rude/mean up was the only way I could get out of awkward situations sometimes). I had a deep dislike for the modern school society (and still do) and didn't think it was right that kids should pretend to "like" each other. I feel like it's just our hormones saying "you know what, I'm male/female and that person is of the opposite gender so we were made for each other." People change a lot in a few years (for me it was only a few weeks that would change me), so someone that you believe was made for you as a child would be someone completely different by the time you're an adult.
However, my view on the world is quite different to that of some others. And it's often frowned upon. I can understand why, but I just don't feel that "freedom" is always what's good for you.
yeah I can see what you're trying to say actually . And nah it wasn't too embarrassing actually , I was more disappointed . It's difficult to explain but , I was disappointed that he cared too much about his image of being "popular" , that he didn't date a girl (me) he liked because of what other might say to him . Which is SO stupid really . Like , I'm not a total loser at my school .. I'm like in the middle . Not popular , but decent enough to kind of hang around with some of them , because there are a lot of groups there and some are nice people and others are mean . But anyway , in the end I was glad that we didn't get together because I wouldn't have wanted to date someone who was 'embarrassed' by dating me so whatever .